Why Am I Waiting?
When we have a desire that isn’t coming to fruition as quickly as we expect, we often interpret this waiting as a punishment or a sign that it will never come. We make the absence of our desire mean that we’re not worthy or deserving enough.
Our desire could be for a new job, a successful business, a new home, a soulmate or even a child. We might believe that we’re focussing on what we want, when in fact we are heavily in the energy of the absence of our desire. This means we are no longer an energetic match to what we’re trying to call in. What we are a match to, is the frequency of ‘impatient waiting’ and so we remain in that state and nothing changes.
Over the years, I have found a way to embrace ‘waiting’, understanding that there is always a deep and important purpose behind this phase, particularly when it concerns big life changes.
HOW WAITING CAN SERVE US
Moving Home - I waited a year to move to my new home after my divorce because the elderly owner passed away during the buying process and the house went into escrow. Although it was frustrating at the time, the pause allowed me to save more money, plan how I wanted to decorate my home and mentally prepare myself for my new family status - just me and my daughter. In hindsight, it would have been very overwhelming if I had moved straight away. I needed that adjustment period.
Waiting to Start a Family - It took a year for me to fall pregnant at the age of 30. I assumed I would fall straight away. At the start, I was adamant that I wanted a daughter and she had to be a Gemini like me (don’t cringe. As time went on, I would cry every time my period came and seeing mothers with their babies would fill me with sadness. I no longer cared about gender or star signs - I just wanted a healthy baby. Then something switched inside me and I realised the arrival of my period meant I was healthy and had another chance to try again knowing others weren’t as fortunate. I began to see the mums & pregnant women around me as proof that motherhood was possible for me and I also realised my body needed the time to recover from being on the pill for 5 years. Within a month or two of this shift, I fell pregnant and had a baby girl born a day before my birthday.
Waiting for a Soulmate - After breaking up with my previous partner it was years before I met my current partner. I would notice loving couples all around me and it felt like I was the exception. Over time, I learned to embrace and really enjoy being single. I celebrated couples and saw them as evidence from the Universe that finding someone was not a rarity. I also did a lot of work on myself, got to know myself and love myself. During this time, I was able to focus on starting my business without the distractions a relationship can bring. I also got clear on what I wanted from a relationship and how I wanted to show up. Looking back, I realise timing is key. We may desire to be with someone and the Universe has the ideal person for us but they may still be in a relationship or be overcoming a recent breakup, so the ‘waiting’ is for a purpose. Once they and you are ready, your paths will cross.
Waiting for a New Job - When job hunting, the right job can seem elusive. When we start applying, we expect to get something quickly and when it doesn’t happen we wonder what’s wrong with us. Shifting this perspective is crucial - It’s likely that the job you are calling in is being prepared by the Universe. Perhaps the person currently in the role hasn’t left yet or the job role hasn’t even been created yet and is still an idea in someone’s mind. Sometimes it can be about us dropping our resistance and becoming more open to new opportunities. I’ve often seen and experienced how the waiting period can humble us and allow us to feel gratitude for where we are, so we don’t bring the complaining / blaming energy with us into our new role.
Waiting in Traffic - When we’re waiting in traffic or stuck behind a slow driver, this enforced waiting can be placed there to prevent us from being involved in an accident up ahead. Being delayed can mean we miss something detrimental.
They’re Always Late! - If we have to wait for a friend who is often late, it could be teaching us patience or teaching us that we have the power to decide how we wait - Do we wait outside the station in the rain or do we wait in a lovely, warm, little coffee shop where we can have a few moments to ourselves and enjoy a cup of tea, or do we meet them at the show so we don’t miss the start. Usually, when people realise that we’re not going to wait for them in a suffering way, they begin to value our time.
If we believe that everything serves us somehow, then we have to believe that there is always a purpose to our ‘waiting’. It’s important to affirm it this way so as not to create resistance to what we’re trying to call in.
Sit with patience and grace within that waiting energy, reframe it, keep focused on what you want, use the pause wisely and trust that your desire will flow to you when the time is right.
With love and light
Gwen x
